Freshdoses

This is one of those posts that makes you wonder about who you really are apart from your choices and how we deal with the weight that comes with the guilt from making a bad choice (decision), especially when it begins to affect and change your behaviour. It is particularly difficult because we know that most times, our choices does not entirely reflect who we are as a person. So you made a wrong move at the wrong time and now you have to pay dearly for the guilt that comes along with it, especially when you know people are murmuring about it and you have no way of defending yourself. You are trapped by thoughts of guilt with no way of reversing it or making it right.

"Thy Will be done ", These words have become so real to me. For the first 20+ years of my life, I never really gave my life any serious thought ( the irresponsibility of ignorance), I lived with such careless abandon, stumbled through bad decisions and failed attempts at figuring out what my life was all about, I walked through days  unsure of what I was going to do with my life most of the time. I sensed that I had something of value, however I was unsure of what it was and how to access it. I remember crying profusely wondering why things were not lining up for me the way I "thought" they should.  I was alive but was not living. I fell into the routine of life as expected - go to school, get a degree, get a job, settle down, grow old, die. But somewhere in this lineup I knew there were some items missing ,which was "become who God created you to be","impact lives", "be great".

This came to me while I was contemplating a situation in my life where I was struggling to understand why I sometimes 'worry' over things I have surrendered to God. This is where a lot of us fall and stay down for a long time, unless we become enlightened inside of us to pick ourselves up by our believe and in the God we have placed our trust in. Because of the way the world is and how we have seen/heard about how people treat each other, the wickedness we see and hear or even experienced, have led us to be quick in our respond to a threat than a promise. This is not because we do not 'know' that God is always willing to rescue us when we call on him, but because we have failed to separate the size of the problem, who is responsible for it and the ability of God. The human nature is "naturally" wicked and full of revenge and spite thereby offering a fertile ground for unbelief, doubt, fear and worry. because when you have been bad towards som

A lot of people walk around defeated. Defeated in their thinking, knowing and understanding of what to do, who they are and who they have become. Life is a series of challenges designed to test our tenacity, and willingness to confront and overcome them so that we may be molded into a people suitable to be presented as worthy of the reward that awaits those that are victorious. I was once a victim of  the question " why me? " and very often slide in and out of it. I never understood why things were not working for me, why I was encountering one challenge after the other and for the most part losing in almost all of the battles. or at least not feeling victorious. We must recognize that the enemy only fights those that have great potential to do irreparable damage to his miserable kingdom, so he will fight you tooth and nail to prevent you from reaching a full awareness of your self and who you are in Christ. The attack is greatest when you are losing somet

This post may not resonate with everyone, though I pray it speaks to as many people that read it. I understand that we all have different understandings and believe systems. But! I believe this cuts across all that as this is a common denominator in our lives. This post may be 'deep' for some, and enlightening for others if you fall in the bracket of the former, it is my prayer that God will give you understanding in your heart as you read.                                       We are under ATTACK. No matter how blessed and successful we are, we are being attacked or about to be attacked.We are in a HEAD fight with the devil, We must attack him with what we "KNOW" . Your head will lead you where your heart will not take you. Your head is the center of your existence, how you relate to people around you and things in your life, so it is very important to protect your head.  The enemy is fighting you over the control of your mind (life), Everything th

                                  I am going to be honest and say that I've had moments when I was so afraid and completely worried and unsure of where my life was headed and how I was going to survive. Fear was slowly becoming part of the worry sequence I had unconsciously allowed into my life.  The thing with fear is that, it stems from the logical part of our human reasoning. You know when things are out of your control and you are at the mercy of the possibility of the situation getting worse and you have no clue how you will survive. We are designed to survive, this means we are equipped with the ability to find ways to solve problems that are tugging at our joy and peace, and when we are unable to do this (naturally), the enemy takes advantage of our ignorance (lack of spiritual knowledge) and triggers fear and it all goes down from there if not intercepted by the word of God. I remember being stuck with thinking about all the things that could go wrong during a ve